Background to the Korean Peninsula = ix Introduction: Conversation with David = xiii Chapter 1 : Growing up in Luxury = 1 Chapter 2 : Moving to South Korea = 9 Chapter 3 : The Plan = 18 Chapter 4 : Panmunjom = 23 Chapter 5 : Kim IL Sung University = 31 Chapter 6 : My First Class = 41 Chapter 7 : Sam, Matt, and Dr. Habibi = 56 Chapter 8 : How Does He Control all of Them? = 60 Chapter 9 : My Rise in the North Korean Regime = 64 Chapter 10 : Drunken Nights: Kim IL Sung's Birthday = 68 Chapter 11 : Profound Influences: Sam and Young Ae = 72 Chapter 13 : The Only Trip: Laos, Thailand, Japan = 78 Chapter 14 : Kim Jong IL = 108 Chapter 15 : Rumors and Tours: Sam and Paekdu Mountain = 122 Chapter 16 : Kim Jong IL Studios: Hollywood and Socialism = 132 Chapter 17: Dr. Han is Replaced/Struggle for Leadership = 137 Chapter 18: Breaking the Myths: Real Tour of pyongyang = 142 Chapter 19: Disillusionment and the 1988 Youth Festival = 147 Chapter 20: Eric Dlsappears = 151 Chapter 21: Imprisonment = 159 Chapter 22: Camp of No Return = 172 Chapter 23: Escape = 182 Chapter 24: Final Notes = 199 Epilogue = 199.